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Ayin 3: Edge

2012; Johns Hopkins University Press; Volume: 35; Issue: 2 Linguagem: Inglês

10.1353/cal.2012.0041

1080-6512

Anthony Reed,

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Ayin 3: Edge* Anthony Reed (bio) give me a blank edge of longing: sodade blue edge beyond the point where lines cross astringent edge of the unsung the unsound - ed - ucations of longing : to long is not to lack we do not want because we are incomplete: no no no : we are complete in longing blithe rustle at the edge of the words that stick to our throats inner sound that unfits our mouths : teach me geometries, not geographies, of desire fractal rift polynomial subdivision who showed you this way? sing to me astringent word bitter with the sting it doesn’t cover impossible longing, too much loneliness longing too much I wait for you it doesn’t cover too much vibratory word less apt : less pat less-ness tap gnostic words gnostic song in search of: not known [End Page 324] addressed to an empty space, placeholder space until the day of her return bottom-edged, bottom lined strangled by guitar strings by what language to speak by how should he address her by someone else’s voice in his mouth: yo ya no soy yo his he not his: in search of bottom line: we are lost another empty room where she is not where she has just left where she is, even then, and then, still leaving (and then . . .) endless partings evaporate trail of her perfume marks her lingering her longing complex sodade on a radio her presence in absence felt in the next room that complement of the distance of outside their window her being there, still there, still How many words for standing apart? how many words grown cruelly apt creating the space they inscribe how to speak? sodade: black edge of certitude: tomorrow is the end of time (another platitude some other lost soul feeling its way back deceiving itself into thinking that her sigh the incidental noises of her breathing are her call to it sing, then. sing to me Quem mostra’ bo Ess caminho longe? pictured the record spinning without seeing its if filled crowded space its lift hidden filled with drift drift demanding its say, its stay unsubtle reminder of the lyric’s lie the harmony’s promise of pat resolution with it, however hard-won: caught in endless relays, endless sodade, geometries of silence to uncomplete the sound record whirled without end whirled without end Si bô ‘screvê’ me ‘M ta ‘screvê be her notebook open to an uncompleted page a single blue line down the center blue edge of everything possible blue edge of everything longed for [End Page 325] endlessly looped longing, turning not in his soul, but adjacent the meaning of adjacency silent insistence of gaps, fissures insistent not-ness of what he was only supposed to know subject to apt-less whirling of longing that is neither desire nor grief beliefless belief insistence of a grief that is not the grief of not: grammatical grief in the letting in the not letting orientations of not: fractal unfolding of space up: lyric’s lift and promise, strained edge of the voice breaking free of the words someone else wants to say another voice breaks through, from below: yo ya no soy you over: what’s left after all the whats have had their say, attributive space divided against itself a prayer it was his body her body held : a prayer to open: to open [End Page 326] Anthony Reed Anthony Reed is an assistant professor of English and African American studies at Yale University. He recently received the PhD degree in English from Cornell University. Footnotes * For Cesária Évora Copyright © 2012 The Johns Hopkins University Press